At times I wonder if I should pursue
Or give up the chasing, go home and cry
Am I worth or is an overhaul due?
At my current state, should I even try?
I've lost my power, I run for cover
I need a fortitude of confidence
I'm outweighed, outswayed, beat by the better
Knocked out cold; sullen is my appearance
There could be a shortcut; a detour
But I'm not familiar with the roads here
I could not find a friend at this hour
They're competitors now; that is my fear
I'm pressured to reach the finishing line
But I fear that this racetrack is not mine

Hi I'm Albert and I have a big head
Physically; metaphorically
I'm human but I look alien instead
With their intellectual capacity
So what's the big deal if I am a nerd?
Is it very wrong to be logical?
Why do we fear theories that are unheard
Or bother to be philosophical?
Why shouldn't walnut-sized brains be better
Since CPUs get powerful shrinking?
Why should we let ancient rolls of paper
Constrain and prevent us from questioning?
Do we wait one more Renaissance to ask?
It's sad - evolution's no easy task

I've updated my Jokes section. Check out Top Ten Signs You Didn't Hire A Real Programmer!

I need my sleep, so I'll end here. Aren't you happy you don't have to strain your eyes and brain trying to figure out what I'm saying?

Simplicity means following the Red Brick road. The path to happiness.

Notice the red arch above? Yep. I've now gotten all 3 primary colors (Red, Green, Blue) as skins!

Before this, it was the slanted-cut Green skin, so click here if you prefer that.

Or, if these colors bore you, you could choose more Skins!

To have a crush is a rush with harsh mush
To have a touch is such it's more than much
To have a hushed squashed brush one turns pink flush
To the point, the arch where starch parches march
Give it more time, generate some enzyme
Where biological's not logical
Stronger than lime, your primal call's a crime
Socially liable to denial
For public? You'll harbor catastrophic
Hit quit, the taunted bit you must commit
Logic doubts how tragic or horrific
Should you risk being known and your cover blown?
Set in stone being alone? Or on the phone?

I've more Quotes for you, as usual!

This should be the shortest post I've done. I've also fixed a multi-line bug in my Guestbook, so sign it freely with lots of lines!

Everything was fine, all was in order
Until one bleak day came this disarray
Lecturers had played with the scheduler
Credit hours doubled, to our dismay
You guessed it, college schedules were clashing
Making me go every day of the week
No chance to go out, no chance for resting
Calamity and free time's all I seek
The person who designed my timetable
Ought to reshuffle or taste the gravel

Fong Fei Kei

Fong Fei Kei - verb (Malaysian slang) - to leave someone alone, to dump suddenly, to abandon on unforseen circumstances. Adapted from Cantonese, where it is literally translated as 'leaving on a jet plane'.

Examples of usage: She Fong-Fei-Kei-ed me when I waited at the office to get things done, taking the day off to line up to buy upcoming movie tickets.

I was, in fact, Fong-Fei-Kei-ed by two people; one after the other, as we were to watch a movie in a group. Both of them watched with their families. Yeah, I know - unforseen circumstances.

Hype

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We are all victims of hype. Myself included. Yeah, sure, I'm ashamed, but I still follow the crowd.

Like today. I was Fong-Fei-Kei-ed (read definition above) for a movie that was the hype. It had a cool trailer (so cool, it had to be pulled down!) It was widely believed that tickets for this particular movie were hard to get. (I know; I met someone who waited for 7 hours for a ticket!)

Sure, I could justify my yearning to see the movie - I had a fair amount of literature relating to it. However, my want turned ugly when I found out that everybody watched it before I did!

Could I watch it alone? Society has declared that watching a movie alone is a social no-no; a faux pas; an act of loneliness.

I felt left out. Classic symptoms of a sufferer of hype. Everybody's doing it; why haven't you?

It wasn't so bad being the last, but being Fong-Fei-Kei-ed as well dealt the blow. I blew. I turned ugly.

To all of you who had to endure my ranting, I am sorry. A thousand apologies for the thousand harsh words that had been said. I knew I went overboard, but I continued on anyway. The hype got me overreacting. :(

I would have normally written it off, dismissed it, and found somebody else to go watch it with. But who? Although it wasn't even a week since the premiere, everybody online I asked watched it already. I didn't get anyone who went excitedly about how he/she wanted to watch it again. They wouldn't mind, as the movie was okay.

It wouldn't be the same if I forced them to watch it again. The after-movie (where people talk about the movie after that) wouldn't be the same. The elements of surprise would be predicted. And most of all, I'd feel guilty.

I don't even know what to make of what I feel now. Perhaps after the movie, you'll find out!

Bah Humbug

Here's something for the less uninterested in my rantings - a new skin! Called Narcissism, it features yours truly, in a very narcissistic way! Also, my About Me page has been updated once again!

Oh, and the *&%#^ Guestbook bug has been fixed! You can now sign my guestbook with my reassurance that it won't be swallowed up by the deep void of bugs in web space!

I stayed up to download Opera 6 and this is what I get?

Opera 6 is no more compliant with my website, formatting-wise, than the previous Opera 5.12!

It's just two lines of geek talk - I hope the rest of you non-techie people don't mind.

Anyway, I've added two links to my About Me section. They are, in no particular order:

Sanity Hills - a refreshingly creative, humor-laden blogger, and;

A programming wizard as well as musically inclined DJ Phuturecybersonique.

I didn't even know the latter linked to me until I checked his site to link to him!

P.S. No golden star sticker for the dudes featured or linked above.